I am afraid of my mom too! I've been journaling a lot in the last couple of days, writing down everything that she did to me over the years. I may end up writing a book! It does feel good to get it all out, even if it's not spoken to the person who actually did the hurting. I'm starting to be able to concentrate on school again. NestWasEmpty, at least you are sober now so congrats to that!!