Thank you firebolt, I know I deserve a happy life,Im not convinced I have done the right thing,its all so so difficult,he is virtually penniless and now homeless,no friends to stay with,all his own doing I know. I know he still loves me which makes it even harder. I keep reminding myself Im doing this for HIS own good as well as my own. He will never seek recovery or when living with me and being babysat.