Good morning ya'll.
Sorry to hear of your struggles Lilly. Sounds like your taking action. Good for you! Don't roll over and cave into the abyss. You'll come out of this stronger. When I caved on MJ, I wasn't very happy with myself. But it still took me a couple days to properly destroy it. I learned something from that experience. What I was doing provided temporary relief from the feelings I was looking for a break from. When the temporary relief ended, I was a little bit worse than before. That occurred each time I smoked.
Now I'm stronger and know temporary relief is worse. Like Amp said, identify what your seeking relief from and employ natural solutions. Doing so will at least minimize the issue. The more natural solutions you apply, the better you feel.