Originally Posted by Pixie30f

Ok, well I just wrote '1' in today's date in my diary. I've previously posted on the November '14 pages that I didn't feel I wanted to start over, despite what I termed 'minor' relapses, as I don't feel like this is back to the beginning. I managed over 200 days from last November and felt pretty indestructible - I now know that's a dangerous feeling, which I began to confuse with 'like a normal person (ie, one that can drink in moderation - haha). Last time I began, it was a kind of surprise to me and here I am again, on Day 1 a bit earlier than I felt like I would be and I am now convinced that this is starting again, not something that I can just add on to the days I achieved before - I did achieve them though and have a lot of good resistance ammunition as a result.



I will need it as I've got a rather worrying week away next week - a writers' retreat with nightly socialising in the bar. Has all the ingredients to knock me off the newly mounted wagon as being 'off the leash' seems to be a bit of a trigger. It's meant to be a creative and constructive week, however - plus I really can't write or get any ideas once I start on the wine - so I am going there with the intention of maintaining my resolve. I know I got through the first hard days/weeks of my first attempt, including Christmas and my birthday (December/January) with the help of this site and the many pearls of wisdom to be found here. The most simple and most encouraging one I found then is one I'll be taking with me next week - 'No-one ever regretted not drinking'. Andiamo.

Px