I guess I didnt view it as huffing as I always associated that with those who inhaled noxious things (like paint or glue). But in the end, I guess it is a form of huffing (Whippets were something I did occasionally in college so I wrote it off as innocuous). I do feel dumbed down. I just hope I can rebound from this. I'm scared Tobers. Scared today, tomorrow and all the other tomorrows. So ashamed.