End of day 5. Finally starting to feel better. I've been feeling very low and emotional, scared too. I made an appt with a counselor for next week but am feeling nervous about it. I am thinking of canceling the appt. I've been thinking of things I can do that aren't alcohol centered...thinking of joining the Y, thinking of looking for volunteering opportunities; thinking of going to church or taking a class. Sometimes I come up w these good ideas but have a hard time actually stepping out. I'm going through a weird period...sometimes I feel lonely and isolated and then when push comes to shove I revert back to being alone and isolated. I'm not sure what's holding me back. I used to take an anti depressant but stopped. Maybe I need to start taking it again.