Ruby, I really feel for you - and brynn - but right now especially Ruby.
I was 36 when I said one day, "I'm done." (with relationships.) I only half believed I'd make it stick, but I have so far. I just hope and pray it never comes back to bite me. Like today! Today I need a plumber. I think I could do it myself, but if I can't - ugh!
However, I'd far rather pay a plumber than live with drunk guy.
So, I'll mop my kitchen floor so the plumber doesn't judge me.