It took me a long time to realize that I wasn't going to experience some Disney end-of-movie switch of the mind and suddenly become all things sober. It's OK and normal to want to have a drink with friends or want to be a moderate drinker. Those thoughts exist right along with wanting to be sober and live a healthy productive life. Meditation really helps me see just how random (and numerous) thoughts can be. I have my chosen path to sobriety because I needed to be empowered. No matter what other noise is happening around me, it is always my choice to drink or not - and I am able to say NO each and every time.