Sadie - I know you know this already but I will say it anyway. We care. Big time. Don't let setbacks bring you down anyone, and thanks so much for your honesty about it. It is a very generous thing to do. As has been said, we've all (probably) visited day one many times. It's normal behaviour for addicts - we're not crazy. Sending out positive, 'you can stay sober' vibes to you all.