That's some great advice scooter - thanks
Rah, I don't think there's any way to negotiate with alcoholism. I thought there was too.
I was always focusing on the last drink -' i shouldn't have had that last drink', 'gee, I don't remember what happened after that last drink' , 'I was fine before that last drink...'
I should have focused on the first drink I took, cos thats the problem one - thats the one that starts the crazy train - it's the one from which all other circumstances spring from.
You might be saying but sometimes I'm fine.
Like you, at least in earlier years, I could manage not to drink to blackout sometimes, or not get drunk sometimes...but it really wasn't control on my part, Rah, it was more good luck.
I have many times when I drank and had bad stuff happen as testament to my lack of control over my drinking.
I finally realised I was a very poor drinker and I had no business drinking.
I really hope you'll have that same realisation Rah
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