Thanks hopeful & lexiecat. Sometimes I don't see the progress I've made in my recovery and yes feel it's moving fast enough!! Even reading old posts I don't always see it but I am trying to look at my behaviours and thinking processes and keeping the focus on me and not letting the negative and obsessive thoughts take over but thinking about what is good for me, what do I need and why I think/behave the way I do. If any of this makes sense, still a work in progress and still more confused days than clear but again one day at a time and focus on one thing at a time. But trying to ask more why/how of myself and doing what's best for me, my family, our happiness and my recovery.