Oh bummer Eliasson. Well you don't have to finish it. I try so hard not to let my husband, kids, aunts and such trigger me. It's hard! I'm stuffing my face with cheese popcorn, soda and a good book. Get back on that horse and ride! I hope your husband is supportive. Mine drinks yet he's supportive if I want to stop. He thinks I should moderate which is almost impossible for me. He needs to really cut back too (better yet... Quit). He drinks while working in the barn or garage and I hang in the house with no booze at the end of the day. It doesn't really even bother me that he drinks (most of the time). We are both concerned that if we retire we might drink ourselves to death. Seriously, this is keeping us working. We will have to find something much less stressful after we retire. How can you work so hard and still drink so much! I just don't know. Good luck E. Stop for the day and start tomorrow fresh.