Kerryjames.....I can tell you're completely devastated about this breakup.
Falsepremise.....do whatever you need to keep yourself sober. When I first quit drinking I moved into a hotel to keep my sobriety intact because I live with a very heavy drinker who didn't like the idea of losing his drinking buddy. That's extreme, but it helped give me a good solid foundation on which to develop new habits.
I have a friend who is avoiding me right now because her drinking has gotten her into some trouble recently. It's weird being on this side of the 'avoiding'. If we were still drinking together she would have no problem confiding in me and that kinda makes me sad. But I know firsthand the shame she must be feeling and I understand why she's laying low. I don't want her to think I would ever judge her and I'm afraid that's what she thinks. Crud.