Startin day 20 here at the beach. Me and the boys are going to the Mexican restaurant during danger time (4pm) today. I’m finding that if I just plan out what I’m going to do during my previous drinking time then that helps. No plan equals stupid thinking has a chance to take hold.
Even though I have 4 kids, 3 granddaughters, and running friends I do feel isolated…..except here. I just cannot talk about my drinking with anyone other than here. I’ve seriously considered AA but I have that social stigma thing to get over. I am getting there as I’m being more honest with myself about my alcoholism. I think I need to write “I am an alcoholic” on the blackboard a hundred times for it to sink in…..Maybe every day.