Exactly. He's not a saint. I have apologized to him so many times for the damaging things I did to our relationship (we were more than friends, once upon a time) and he can't let certain things go. So now he feels like it's ok for him to bring these things up, even though he's not blameless - says he might never trust me again. I don't want to lose him but I might have to, at least for a while.