This is a good conversation.
Interestingly enough, I have never had any issue with the spiritual side of AA.
I am deeply spiritual, and always have been.
But you don't have to feel this way to still get a lot out of AA. Maybe you could just go to a meeting Arbor and see how it feels? And phoebe, the same for you...you could end up meeting some wonderful new friends.
As for the question "how do I believe?"
For some people, they start with the power of the universe. The magic of nature. Or remember that license plate you saw Arbor when you needed a sign? The AV plate? For me, that is the power of the universe, or God.
Just some thoughts....
Yes Briar, a simple day is a good day for me too. I was thinking about that last night. I used to crave excitement. Now I crave serenity.
Love to everyone. ♥