You remind me so much of myself. I tried in so many ways to make alcohol somehow "fit" into my life. I tried for decades. Literally 20 years. I tried every trick in the book. Switching boozes, times, days, just weekends, etc.
And I would defend MY RIGHT TO DRINK BECAUSE my LIFE SUCKED SO BAD to anyone and everyone that gave me even the slightest inkling that they weren't in complete agreement with my choices.
Damn it.
So, yeah. That just served to dig my hole deeper and deeper. Until I almost was physically unable to even begin to crawl out.
Artfriend, (Our Friend) you are right where so many of us started our REAL journey back to ourselves. I sincerely hope you will keep on the path with us. A sober life is a magnificently authentic life. And authenticity holds no space for escapism.
May you be blessed.
