Jazz,
I step away from this site often especially when I upset myself in response to other's posts. But I did read today and found your thread. I've been sober a good spell and it didn't become comfortable to me until I reprogrammed my thoughts on alcohol. RR helped me, but even if I put all thought of drinking on my AV, the thoughts were still there. It wasn't until I saw alcohol for what it truly is... A poison without a single real positive trait, that it became simple not to drink it. I have Alan Carr and Jason Vale to thank for my change in perspective. When I am around others drinking all I feel now is compassion for them as they are in the alcohol trap and don't even know it. I feel nothing but gratitude that I escaped.
I hope you find what you need to keep you sober and happy.