The other thought I had, AF, is in line with the last sentence in Verte's post above. "What is the status of looking for a supportive day program?" You have talked about many versions of these earlier, and that you investigated/started things, but there wasn't much follow-up on them at least shared here.
Instead, a thread about drinking half a glass of wine or something like that a day. I also wondered what's the appeal to actually drink half a glass of wine for someone who clearly likes to use alcohol (even if it's a different formulation) as escape, even if only occasionally now? Are you drinking a little wine for the taste or what's the attraction? From your OP it sounds like you don't even like the wine much. Something just does not compute here for me.
Well, considering everything you are sharing... if drinking occasionally does not affect your life negatively, and you are content with how things are for you and it's not necessary to make major changes, then good for you.