Well done for posting whiteturtle. I am sure you would regret it tomorrow if you did after coming so far. Try and find anything you can to distract you for now. It will pass.
It is later here so I am safe as the shop closes very soon. What I am finding odd is I had forgotten how manic my brain can get without a drink. I mean giggling over things sober feels good and thinking clearly is great but it's a lot at once. I seem to be so up and down today between strong AV and feeling elated that I am starting to feel more me. Just wish my brain would slow up for five mins.