Hey non,
Glad you are back with us. You're posts are a big help to others on here. Being honest about a relapse is healthy, for you and others. I also developed a mean streak when intoxicated. I think I have offended and hurt most people I know. I have lost a lot of friends.
It's the alcohol that is mean and nasty. Everything about it - it destroys people, families, communities.
One of the things helping me not to relapse so far is that I view it as an act of rebellion and dissent. I'm angry with alcohol and always will be.
B