Ditzydandelion that sounds difficult.
Maybe some outside support would be helpful?
I too, had friends who seemed not to notice the large amounts I was capable of drinking. It was accepted. I remember way before I ever drank, I bartended and seeing people there every day, or people getting wasted- really didn't mean anything to me. It just meant they drank a lot. They were together, good people, with good jobs.
Well unfortunately now I know the signs.
Whiteturtle I hope you are well today...