Thanks, everyone. I really hope she can forgive me too. I've put so much into this relationship and so has she. I think that, beneath all the baggage we've both been lugging around with us since way before we ever met, there's a really solid foundation there. But, honestly, that's out of my hands. I'll do everything I can. And that includes trying to stay on this sober path.
I'm a little worried about going to work tonight. I work in a pub. I've handed in my notice and finish on July 30th, so it will be a struggle until then. I've just decided that I'm going to come home as soon as the shift ends. Most nights, everyone gathers round, but I'll keep away from that. Checking in here sober later will provide some motivation, at least.
Thanks, y'all.