Morning Overs,
Today's gonna be a long one. Early wake up after trouble going to bed. I was pretty emotional after last night's meeting. I have had crippling social anxiety which I thought had gotten better (and it has, in some circumstances). But it seems to have come back with a vengeance at meetings. I want what a lot of these people have. I want to be like a lot of these people. But I can't even get my words out in the right order just making small talk, much less share so everyone can be familiar with me. The things I would share about are things I have barely ever spoken about out loud. And I know that's how everyone was when they first started going. But I dunno. I got onto the hamster wheel of "there's something wrong with me" and "I'm not {insert any quality here} enough." Just a pretty hopeless feeling.