MarathonMan I remember those feelings at that time, you can get through this. The thing is you are on a marathon when you go into recovery, every so often the going gets tough, all sorts of obstacles and hurdles come up but you can get past them.
Try turning the tables a bit: when you run a marathon how do you get through the hard bits? I'm guessing that your training, your self-talk and your stamina come into play? Ok, so how can you apply this to recovery? If you can run a marathon you have skills that some of us are still developing.
As for your wife: she's a normie. They don't get it and love 'em as we might we aren't normies. Demonstrate your commitment to sobriety ti her, she's still with you, I'm guessing she's still there because she loves you.
You can do it, I'm cheering you on.