Welcome Charlie. Finishing up sober day 12 tonight. My stress level has been increasing and previously that was the hook that my AV used to convince me that I'm "happier" drunk than sober. Even though I knew it was a lie the threshold was lowered just enough to suspend disbelief and....well drink.
But its different now. The above, that's short-term thinking. I know I'll feel better if I just stick it out, keep using my tools, and let some sober time pass.
Me and my boys go to the beach on Sunday for a week. The beach is a big trigger. I'll be on here checking in and working my tools during my danger zone.