Sorry for the long absence, I fell off the wagon during the months of May, June and beginning of July. I am not proud of it and I only come on here because I'm pretty freaked out. I ended up drinking a lot the night before, then in the early morning just randomly went whale watching on a touring boat. I know that sounds really bizarre and random. I was totally aware of what I was doing but I can't believe I would spontaneously do that. Anyway, I'm safe, everyone around me is safe. I just got back and I want to start over again and start sobriety over starting today. First I want to get some rest, and then just start making a list of things I can't do to myself and hopefully become a better person in the next few weeks. I hope anyway.