I was the same way Don. I was totally reluctant to go to AA because I wasn't even sure if I was an alcoholic, but I did have a desire to quit drinking and that was all that was required to attend AA. It makes staying sober so much easier. I go to really fun meetings and we laugh our arses off lots of the time. Just being there, healthy and living in the moment and showing what the promises of AA look like is such a blessing for those new to recovery who are struggling. It gives hope. It's pretty much a big part of my social life after several years of sobriety and that would have sounded horrible to me prior to quitting drinking. It isn't horrible at all. I think this is what they are talking about when they say "wait for the miracle to happen."