Congratulations on your 80 days, amp.
I'm feeling more like myself today than I have in a few days. The last few days have been kinda rocky and I have wanted to drink but I didn't. That lifestyle that I had while drinking was not a true life, and I'm so afraid that if I have that one drink it will domino into that life again. I'm an alcoholic and I cannot have just one drink. When I drank there were times that I wanted to die. I never actually tried but I thought everyone would be better off without me. I do not want to die. There's a lot that I would like to do in life, watch my beautiful son grow up into a good man, eventually move back to my home state and just keep working on myself. I'm so happy that I didn't drink during that rough patch.
SwimKim, we're all here for you. It will indeed pass. (hugs)
I've gone over past postings by myself and in this group and it has helped so much. Thank you all very much.
