I didn't want to leave the impression the switch to technicolour was instantaneous...
it took a lot of work and longer than I would have liked...but nowhere near the 30 years I gave to drink or drugging....it was a pretty good deal really.
As for depression - I don't think that's a failing or a weakness any more than being an alcoholic is - it just *is*...
if you can deal with it alone, then great, but if not I don't see any shame at all in asking for help from a professional.
Hang in there Mark
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