You guys are all doing an amazing job! I am so proud of you!
If you want the honest story, my slip was completely planned. I needed to know if anything would be different this time. And it wasn't. I got a tattoo Thursday night, (yes I had a sober driver), blew off my mom for lunch on Friday because I hadn't been to bed yet, slept for 4 hours on Friday, got up, got beer in order to feel like a human again, went to the pool and started all over again, stayed up until 2:30 Friday night. Sick as a dog all day yesterday. So I pretty much lost 3 days of my 4 day vacation because of drinking. Oh and I didn't eat any food for over 48 hours. So no it wasn't different, it was the same as every other time. Uncontrollable...
I wish now that I hadn't done it.