Here's the thing, dunkelheit. It really doesn't matter what has happened to you in the past, or what is on your social calendar for the future. That stuff does not matter.
What matters is what you do now. This moment. Look around you - where you are, what you are doing in this instant. In this instant, this present time, you make a decision to drink or not to drink. You already have it within you to make this choice. Every time, no matter what the situation is, you have it within you to decide not to drink. You do. YOU, Dunkelheit, can choose to quit drinking.
You can do all sorts of things, but the only way to get sober is to quit drinking. And of all times to quit drinking, now is the best. And it is the only time because it is always now.
Do it, Dunkelheit. You can do it. You don't have to keep drinking, you don't have to keep making this mess. You can stop, and you can stop for good.
Are you ready to make your decision about continuing to use alcohol?