Originally Posted by
dunkelheit 
IThis isn't working. I'm definitely drinking less, but it's still a daily thing for me, I would really like to cut down, but I'm lonely and I want to have fun for the first time in 4 years.
1. You already know that "cutting down" isn't an option. Alcoholics cannot "cut down". You either make a plan to quit or keep drinking.
2. Drinking does not equal fun for an alcoholic. It equals pain, misery, regret, shame and a lot worse if you keep up long enough. Living sober can be equally fun and fulfilling.
As others have mentioned, you just need to make a decision....is it time to quit or not? Tapering down/cutting back/changing the way you drink is not an option. As an alcoholic, you will always drink like one no matter where or when you do it.