I didn't say that to make you feel guilty Jeff - guilt is a pretty useless emotion anyway.
we're a family and sometimes I reads things here that sadden me - but they don't overwhelm me, cos that wouldn't do you or me much good
I know you're battling this, but I have faith in you and your ability to do the right thing by those you love , those who love and depend on you, and most importantly , by yourself
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