Good morning. Mets, you're not kidding, it's a gorgeous day here, truly couldn't be better. And a day off, so perfect! Sounds like you have things going well, birthday, Europe, your fitness program, and you're sober...you're going to be a great catch for the right person.
I understand the situational anxiety - it doesn't make sense in the context of a basically confident person - I have it too. To the extent that in my most recent doctor's appointment I brought it up to my doctor as it's not getting better and it's starting to negatively impact my job performance. So she prescribed Paxil for me, I've been taking it for almost 2 weeks. It's too early to tell if it will work, because it takes about a month to build up. However it's making me incredibly tired. That sluggish tired feeling is reminiscent of hangover time, and I don't like it much. I guess the plus side is that it reinforces that drinking = hangover = no thank you.