I hear your frustration.....I started taking anti depressants in the last six months.....I'm better for it......my doctor gave me trazadone to sleep ...... I've got other another anti depressant for depression and also a mood stabilizer ...... I have yet to make it past 51 days so congratulations on 6 months.....but I am feeling a whole lot better. If you haven't already get some exercise and take some vitamins.....both of those activities will help w what sounds like depression talking.