Mariah, please don't get disheartened. I tried many times unsuccessfully, to quit the wine but this particular time it just clicked. The important thing is just not to give up trying. I don't believe you have to hit rock bottom before you can escape this dreadful disease (i certainly didn't anyway), but i do believe that it helps to fill that psychological space with something meaningful. For me it's a spiritual path. I like to think I've swopped an unhealthy destructive spirit for a life affirming, loving spirit.
Now, I love my journey so much that I can't see any reason to turn back, but it did take about 9 months of sobriety for that inner change to happen.
UP, my suggestions for some weekend planning would be a mixture of:
physical activity (walking ?)
spending at least an hour each day outside;
Reading something uplifting and positive;
A cup of coffee at a coffee shop, with a newspaper to read.
Contact with a friend, either face to face or by phone;
Creating something nice for a meal;
Clearing out a cluttered space (a drawer or cupboard;
An hour or so of housework;
Church or other spiritual activity;
Doing something nice for a stranger.
My bet is you'll be joining Obo, with the football though?
Wimbledon is on here, we have high hope for our Andy,
Come on Andy, you can do it!