Yep this was me-too not so long ago. I'm just a heavy drinker. Monday morning after a heavy night I'm running around organizing the week and I could not focus. It was like one of those dreams where you try to run but can't. By 9am I thought maybe I need to eat, sitting in the cafe waiting for my order rubbing my face continually, then I realize a beer would fix this straight away. I didn't act on it but l know it's going to happen if I keep going. I NEVER thought I would feel like a drink in the morning but there it was. Went to my first aa meeting that night. Good luck with your mental battle I think you're going to need it.