2 Muchpainwrote: "The point I was trying to make is to be true to yourself and your intentions."
Yes, I completely agree. That's engraved on the chip they hand out at AA meetings. But the essential question is "What is meant by yourself...your intentions?" When you're in recovery and trying to regain control of your AV the question, as it is with any "beast", is "who's in charge here?" There are two "me's", one the AV, the other your "true" self, the self which has been numbed into complacency by alcohol. It's a dodgy situation, to put it mildly. I found that I needed all the help I could get and then some. Particularly other recovering alcoholics. Like them I tended to be a risk taker. Often feeling "true to myself" ("I'll get by; I'll manage this...") More often than not I found I was wrong. And the odds of failing grew increasingly higher, the consequences more severe.. It takes work, stamina, humility and a lot of luck. That's all I can say.
W.