Self Hatred is such a harsh word. Don't you
think? Hatred. No one likes to use that word
or should have have to use that word. It's so
ugly. Right?
We need to learn...learn how to change that
ugly word to a pleasant more appealing word.
A lovely, loveable, kind, caring considerate
word.
Many, including myself grew up with family
or friends verbally abusing us with ugly words
that hurt. They hurt us deep down to our very
being. We didn't deserve to be talked to or
treated by those we thought loved or cared
for us.
However, many of us had to learn that
we were raised by sick parents who in
their own addictions, sickness, illness
treated us badly and did the best they
could with whatever knowledge they
had to use at that time in their lives.
Or they didn't know any better, which
I would beg to differ on that. However,
being in recovery and thru the years have
learned to turn off those negative tapes
that was drilled into me as a child and replace
them with healthy, more positive one that
could and would build my self esteem, self-
worth, the person that I truly am meant to
be.
I used alcohol to numb many of those negative
childhood issues, verbal, physical, emotional
abuse sustained at the hand of a sick mother
and it nearly costed my life.
When I got into recovery and worked thru
all those issues I drank over, I became stronger
in my heart, mind and soul as well as regaining
my life to be a more healthier, happier person.
Today I own my life, my recovery and am
so grateful for it because no one can ever
take it away from me.
You can too.
