Originally Posted by
Cauliflower 
We are the same person Cee. I am just shaking now, close to tears because I totally get what you are saying. My father was diagnosed with an untreatable disease. I idolize this man, and he is dying. I understand your need to be sober, to have a clear head to deal with this. I need to be sober now, because I too know that I will fall very very hard when the time comes to say goodbye if I am not sober. You are inspiring. Just know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am in a similar position as well...my mother has a degenerative neurological disorder very similar to MND. Its awful and I totally understand. I am lucky in that I still have my father who is her main carer but he is not in the best of health himself. I am trying my best to look after my children and work and shuttle back and forth to my parents (they live 30 miles away). Guilt weighs heavily that I am not doing very well at any of this and I know that drinking would make things a million times worse.
Sending lots of positive hugs all round to everyone...
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