5 years is awesome! You can get back to sober. I've been trying for years, can hardly string 5 days, or 5 weeks together these days.
It goes without saying, we are never free from our addictions. It must be a lifelong thing. Or surrender, I got told that at some meetings. But, the beast never dies, I believe. All we can do is hope to arrest it, day by day. And you've done that! No reason in the world you can't again.
Thanks much for this post. It gives me a lot of hope for my own recovery. Thanks for sharing this. And I've been trying for many years.