"if you want to make god laugh tell him about your plans"
I had none. I had no idea anything. I basicly white knuckled it the first year. But I devoured any kind of information I could on this short of going to AA or coming here or something. 6 months in I changed my diet and started exercising becuase I felt terrible still.
Now I dont really have a plan but I try and keep a routine. My routine consists of daily running or walking. Enjoying the scenery as much as possible. Eating good and playing with my kids and such. I try to stick to things that make me stay happy.
Some issues I have however is if my routine has to get altered I dont like having to adapt. It can really throw me into a tizzy. This has me wondering if there is some deeper issue going on but I do try work with the situations that arise as I know this is just life.
I try and come here and I try to read inspireing stuff daily. I also realize that its a work in progress for me to keep my head above water and not end up back in the pit of depression and despair. I realize there is no magical cure that this is just going to be an ongoing process for me and I"m accepting of that. If at some point I'm magically cured and feel great with little effort hey great but till then I have to work at it and i'm ok with that.