How much do you want to live we ask
ourselves? How much will it take for me
to regain my life back from an addiction
that is taking my life?
How much? I know it takes money to
live, but we cant take the money with
us when we die. So why not find what
ever it takes to regain our lives back
from this horrible disease, illness, addiction,
whatever you want to call it that is wiping
out good souls on this Earth.
I didn't know how much it cost for
my family to keep me in rehab, and
after my 2 weeks was up in rehab
I was told I would surely go home
and drink again so they wanted to
send me away out of state to a half
way house away from my family.
I begged and pleaded with them to let
me stay where I was to complete 28
days with a 6 week outpatient program
attached before completing the recommended
rehab program.
It may have costed us all we had, but
I believe my family care enough about
me to help me get better and resolve
many of my internal issues or demons
I was fighting with with alcohol.
Once I complete the program then the
ball was in my court to do what ever I
wanted or needed to do to stay sober
no matter what.
I fought tooth and nail to not be dragged
to the hospital until the authorities came
to escort me to the back seat of a handless
police car and driven off to the mental hospital.
I know without a doubt if my family hadn't
intervened on me that very day 24 yrs ago,
I could be dead today, in a mental hospital,
or in the gutter somewhere's because I
didn't want anyone to help me.
My family got me help because they
cared enough for my own well being
when I could have cared less. And that
is truly sad to say because that was how
sick I was.
To care less what happened to me
or my family because of my pride,
my selfishness, my disease.
We can always rebound back if we
are financially bankrupt for however
long it takes. However we have just
one life, one body to take care of and
if we don't have that then we have nothing
else.
Do WE who are sick with addiction
want to DIE?