I won't debate disease or self will et al. We know the progression of not only drinking but also of Recovery/early sobriety. Daily we read and many have gone through - including you and me - early sobriety.
It Sucks.
I was prepared for brain mush, cravings, sleeplessness, anxiety etc. My bail out plan was not to drink when these occurred - but, if overwhelming find additional support.
Out patient or In - I would have taken it to another level. Thus far, I have not had to - but I am prepared if necessary.
Whatever it takes......
I am a non-drinker