I feel your pain Serenidad, I was 4 yrs. sober and then just lost it. Many relapses and detox's recently. I enrolled in an IOP (intensive out patient) because I feel I needed a "booster" shot of recovery. I'm glad I did....I will finish up this week and move on the continuing care. The hours are convenient, so I can still work and be home with my family....it is the next best thing to in-patient. I feel very positive right now and my recovery looks good in the future. Just google IOP's in your area, and find one that works for you. Best Wishes.