Thanks all - means a lot to know I am not alone.
In terms of a plan, I have decided to stop looking for extrinsic solutions - I am in the UK and have seen my GP who has sent me off to an addiction unit for counselling and prescribed medication. I have also tried herbal remedies and private counselling. No one and nothing is going to take this away for me and I now realise that I need to take control myself and stop excepting other people/things to do it for me.
It is good to be back here though.
Much love to you all xxx
