Thankyou B.B I guess you are right. In fact for a few years about 2 years ago I went through a lot of depersonalisation issues..am I real? Do people have a real self? Partly based on books by 'The Self Illusion' which are interesting but in my experience coupled with alcoholism equals brain totally messed up. Gonna keep on plodding on. Alcohol seems to affect the brain in so many bad ways. Also, anyone reading this..If you are depressed be wary of taking cetalopram..It made me crazy mad for booze and also made my ability to drink rocket to 3 plus bottles of wine a night