Originally Posted by
Hobbers 
If 'we are powerless over alcohol', then how is it 'ultimately under my control'? See, a lot of the AA messages are, to me, mixed messages. Or, wherever/whenever something doesn't 'fit' the model, they just make up a convenience exception.
I drank Sunday night and most of the day on Monday. I am back to Day 1-2 now. At least I am back, right?
This is so frustrating...
I don't always agree with AA but from an AA perspective we are powerless over alcohol until a higher power intervenes to overcome it. We can choose to follow the steps. This allows us to become receptive to the higher power who wants good things for us but won't act against our free will.
My personal belief notwithstanding : Why are you getting drunk? You say you don't want to. If you have control over your drinking why is it you cannot stay sober?
If I drink the first drink I cannot guarantee the consequences won't be bad.