I agree with KC. I go to AA, and can't describe how great it is to meet up and talk with people who understand me. People who have walked my path ahead of me and give me their strength and hope. People who can take one look and know when I'm not 'fine' and when they ask "How are you?" don't just want that reply - they want to know if not and why not. Somewhere to sit and listen , and often hear just what I needed at that moment. I have also met people who I really like, and who are becoming real friends. People who DO want to do sober stuff. Who I can let my guard down with, knowing that they won't judge me.
There is a big difference between getting sober, and recovery. You deserve both. Please reach out and take some of the other support that is in your area (as well as using Sober recovery, of course
).
Keep posting x